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[Filtered from Quatre] [Mar. 5th, 2005|11:38 am]
Heero Yuy-Winner
[mood |sicksick]

My head aches all the time now. I don't take my painkillers all the time, so Quatre doesn't know it. I might have to tell him soon, if it gets too much, but I'm determined that I won't let him know until there is no other option.

I won't, damn it.

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(no subject) [Jan. 30th, 2005|05:07 am]
Heero Yuy-Winner
[mood |happyhappy]

It's Sunday; operation keeping Quatre in bed has begun.

If anyone calls, drops by or tries to otherwise contact us, we're ignoring it.

Today, he's all mine, and I'm all his.

He's not even getting out of bed for food, I've planned ahead.

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[Filtered to Duo and Trowa] [Jan. 22nd, 2005|12:53 am]
Heero Yuy-Winner
[mood |worriedworried]

I don't like to hear him say that without me he wants to die.

I don't want to trouble anyone, but right now...

I don't know how to convince him that he can go on without me.

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(no subject) [Jan. 21st, 2005|06:09 pm]
Heero Yuy-Winner
[mood |sleepysleepy]

Okay, you meddlers, I spoke to Quatre.

I feel a little better, not happy that I upset him, but better in myself.

Still, since we are married, we're in this together.

Thanks Duo, Wufei.

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[Friends only - filtered from Quatre] [Jan. 19th, 2005|11:04 pm]
Heero Yuy-Winner
[mood |determineddetermined]
[music |Matchbox 20 - Unwell]

I worry now about dying. The thought never really occured to me before. Being destroyed, yes, I viewed myself as little more than a machine during the war. But dying, of this disease that I know nothing about, really? That may or may not be a result of my training, or my brain fever, or just a coincidence?

I don't want to die like that.

That makes... everything seem a little sharp edged, sometimes. A moment that might have been just a sweet nothing now reminds me that I have to treasure my time, because it may be running out....

I don't like thinking like this, it isn't like I used to be, but I guess, it's a new world and a new time.

I'm just worried that I won't live through much of this new time.

Most of the time, I'm amazingly happy. I love Quatre very much and I'm secure in that. But there are times when I just can't help wondering what's going to happen. I had headaches even on my honeymoon - however happy I am, it won't go away. I'm not used to my own body letting me down.

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We're back [Jan. 2nd, 2005|04:08 pm]
Heero Yuy-Winner
[mood |calmcalm]
[music |Utada Hikaru - Close to you]

Me and Quatre are back from Japan as of now.

It was a good honeymoon, people were kind to us and it was good to see my cultural background, even if I'm not all that attatched to it. We had a nice hotel and things went well for most of the time.

There was one hitch when I got one of my headaches and we didn't have my painkillers, but Quatre took good care of me and I'm okay now. Otherwise, it went perfectly, as we'd hoped.

Wedding photographs we'll have soon.

Training starts again on Tuesday the 4th. Bethany will no longer be with us - she decided that in the end the life of a Preventer wasn't for her. We still have Nikki, though.

Hope everyone had a good Christmas, and happy New Year to you all.


Edit: Missing out words is a product of exhaustion.
Not because of that, you perverts.
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Fifty first entry [Nov. 30th, 2004|09:52 pm]
Heero Yuy-Winner
[mood |naughtynaughty]
[music |Blink 182 - Down]

Your Ultimate Purity Score Is...
CategoryYour Score Average
Explored the pleasures of the flesh
Has yet to see self in mirror
Sex Drive 84.2%
The Pope is envious
Gayness 16.1%
Makes Dr. Frank-n-Furter look tame
Fucking Sick96.5%
Refreshingly normal
You are 76.47% pure
Average Score: 72.7%

Well, there you are. Not as far gone as Trowa or Duo.

Me and Quatre spoke to the journalist who will become our cadet. She was very interested in our wedding... I have a feeling our privacy won't last much longer. Still, we survived flirting, and our first kiss, and me proposing to him, and the wedding day itself without being noticed by the media so I guess we're lucky.

Wufei, since Duo's betting on you and Relena... I'll vote that you'll break first. Don't go losing me my money, now.

Don't hurt her. But don't be shy. Why am I suddenly giving you advice?

Anyway, though I'm at the risk of Relena's wrath, I'd say go for it.

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Fiftieth entry [Nov. 23rd, 2004|10:52 pm]
Heero Yuy-Winner
[mood |happyhappy]
[music |Within Temptation - Deep within]

Well, the wedding went ahead, and I now have to change my surname to Yuy-Winner.

I don't think any of us messed up, and it was a lot of fun. Relena (i_hate_pink) probably danced the most, apart from me and Quatre, I don't know how Wufei (steelandsilk) managed to get her to stop in the end. She's a real lady.

I would say more about the emotional side of things, but I don't know quite how to phrase it, so I think I'll refrain for now. When the wedding photos are developed, I'll make sure to show some of the best, though it may take a while to get everything sorted.

As Trowa put it, I'm still "grinning like a loon". I didn't know he had such a command with words, but there you go.

-Heero Yuy-Winner
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Forty-ninth entry [Nov. 18th, 2004|05:01 pm]
Heero Yuy-Winner
[mood |thoughtfulthoughtful]
[music |Gackt - December love]

It's been a while since I had much to write in my journal, but I think I can write something of decent length now.

I am disappointed that me and Quatre can never seem to get married. But, maybe we're just not ready. When we're both ready for it, we will be able to get ready. It's in the hands of fate, or Allah, or whatever greater purpose you believe in.

I'm also kind of restless. This base isn't big enough to hold me. I go for walks but they aren't long enough, and I don't particularly want to go to the gym with the cadets... there's only so many things I can do. I've been looking over the list of new cadets, there seem to be some interesting characters in there. It also seems to be a male dominated course, which is the opposite to this time. Wufei and Relena will be charmed to know that there is a journalist amoung them - goodbye privacy for me and Quatre. She can't say anything about Relena though, thankfully, she's not allowed to disclose the names of any of the other cadets.

Speaking of the cadets... it'll be good next time, because Nikki and Bethany will be able to help with the teaching process, and I think the course is much better thought out this time. I can't help but be a little apprehensive about letting the cadets go this time. It's only another fortnight before they leave - and me and Quatre go to Japan. I can't help wondering if I have taught them to the best of my abilities. I have, after all, been very distracted some of the time. If one of them dies... well, I won't forgive myself very well.

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Forty-eighth entry [Nov. 9th, 2004|08:34 pm]
Heero Yuy-Winner
[mood |depresseddepressed]

Nothing has been happening.

Life is slow. Soon the cadets will leave, but Quatre and I won't have got married. Every time we try to schedule it, someone is unable to go.

This Saturday, is everyone available?

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